Scientistic Method Example 1

Abstract:

Personal data leads me to conclude that I am a straight (heterophilic) man in a gay (homophilic) body. This gender/ orientation, being attracted to women but being unattractive to them, I am currently calling sterl. The action step is still under consideration; possibly it will involve devotion to Scientism.

Scientistic Method: 1. Observe; 2. Question; 3. Investigate; 4. Conclude; and 5. Act.

1. Observe:

About 3 days ago, circa 2-17-2010, very early in the morning, I imagined myself and a black man with a white woman. Suddenly, I understood why white women often prefer black men physically. They are shaped like men.

• Black (phenotypically African) men have larger, more massive, and more well-defined muscles, especially on chest and arms, compared to white me.
• Blacks have deeper voices.
• Blacks are overall more massive and thus, appear more protective.

2. Question:

Why do women not like me? This I ask after approximately 40 years of experience, 3 marriages, 3 daughters, and numerous other women. One wife said, "You look like a boy", and another time, "You are not a man." Again she said, "I want an alpha male." The second wife also challenged my masculinity more than once. The first wife despised and insulted me in two languages. The question therefore is, why do women not prefer me?

3. Investigate 1: Am I physically attractive ("manly") to women?

• As noted above, I have had long and difficult experience with women of many ages, cultures and other variables. Women always leave me, often for another man.
• What about visual images? The few "porn"-type images I have seen which are definitely for women, always show "V" shaped men. The men's race does not seem to matter as much as their upper body musculature. I call this the "Superman" shape.
• Is it all about the money? Upper-income women often "play" with lower-income men, such as landscapers. These are always Superman shaped, as are gigolos.
• What about intelligent, upwardly-mobile Asian men? White women almost never choose Asian men. Asians are slender and less massive than either whites or blacks.
• What about sheer masculine force? I have allowed women to attack me with scissors and a knife (first wife), with vicious words (first and second wives), and to insult and offend me emotionally (first, second, and third wives), all without complaint or self defense. As to the physical attacks from No.1: I simply restrained her, or in one case ran away.
• I ran away from first wife, who was smaller than myself, when she was armed only with a small kitchen knife.
• What about rape, which the Feminists claim is about power rather than sex? I have a lot to say about this antiscientific idea, but for the present: I have never come close to raping a woman. I don't want to; it actually hurts emotionally to think of raping anyone. This appears to be a lack of what the Latinos call machismo.

Primary Conclusion: I am not a Superman type, which is the type women prefer. Given all of this data- and there is much more- I conclude that, compared to average men, I am not manly, and not likely to attract any woman physically.

Additional data:

• I keep a jumble of tools in a pastel pink, scalloped box T bought at a thrift store. I have a pink tool box.
• When I was young, gay men would "hit on" me, sometimes aggressively. I never responded, except to leave the area. Today I would treat them as predators.
• Gay men still hit on me, although not as aggressively. I understand how women feel.
• I am very sensitive, caring, kind, etc. I appear to be all the things women love; and with money I would be very "eligible", except that a woman will always want another man's body.
• All my exercise has resulted in ability to do 60 push-ups in 2 minutes, 12 chin-ups, etc., but no major bulk increase. I look like an athletic woman.

This raises an obvious orientation question.

Investigate 2: Am I gay (homophilic)?

• I cannot stand gay porn. I find it, not only anal sex but everything generally, very unpleasant.
• I did have a childhood relationship with a boy; however it was restricted to kissing and fonding. I have not been seriously attracted to a male since then.
• I do enjoy the company of gay men, as I find them more sensitive, intelligent, open-minded, and better dressers than (Southern) straight men.
• However, I totally love women, especially women with youthful appearance.

Secondary conclusion: I am not gay (homophilic), but almost completely straight (heterophilic).

4. Conclude: My body and overall attitude are homophilic, but my sex drive is heterophilic. I am a straight man in a gay body.

5. Act: Not sure at this date. It is highly unlikely that I will be successful in sexually attracting women. I could pay for sex, but that is not the issue. One option is to devote myself to Scientism.

Discussion:

I have not cited any web sites, since all of these data can be easily Googled or otherwise accessed. Many of the data are common knowledge, at least among those who can think beyond political ideology ad religion.

My rare gender/ orientation was decided when I was conceived; hence it is nobody's "fault". I am an unusual mutation: one which probably should not have reproduced. I have had three daughters, but I am sure not to have any more.

What should I name this straight man/ gay body dichotomy? In respect to the security guard at Reichold Inc., when she commented on my lack of wife or girlfriend, I will define my gender/ orientation as "sterl". A man who is attracted to women, but because of his gay physique/ attitude, is physically unattractive to them, is sterl.

I wonder how many other men are like me. Probably I should have been gay. Yet I cannot make my body into Superman, nor can I "gay" myself. Sterl appears to be a genuine sexual identity, if not a desirable one.

As I said, perhaps being sterl is an opportunity to devote myself to Scientism. I used to have a love-hate relationship with sex; I wondered if there were something more to life. It seems that biology has a sense of irony.

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